Who I Am
I didn't think I would be writing a blog post the night before I have an economics test. I just need to write. Today I was faced with some real thoughts about who I am as a person and a daughter of the most high God. I was struggling today in my identity, my identity in Christ. I questioned why God created me the way he did. I am not talking about weight or height but my learning disability. I have a learning disability that affects my ability understand language as a "normal" person should. I am not affected by my disability as I use to be however I am affected by my disability when understanding certain social cues. I struggle socially when making new friends or even liking a guy. I struggle trying to help people I care about by saying the wrong thing at the wrong time. I am thankful for my biblical counseling class that has helped me better understand how to help people and when to say certain things to help people. The Lord is still working on me in this area.
The Lord confronted me today with a model that is so applicable to my life and showed me of my own sinfulness and failures. Whatever I treasure, I will think do, and feel in my situation. I sometimes place value and make idols out of the wrong things. They include what people think, being a perfectionist, technology, and even friendships. As believers we tend to misplace our priorities in people or stuff that will ultiamately fail us or even fade away. The things we can see are temporary but the things that are unseen are eternal. So what has my problem been... I have idolized the wrong relationship with a friend. I've been longing for that friendship and just time with that friend, and consumed with making that friendship perfect. I have idolized a friendship. I was consumed with the importance of a friendship instead of being consumed with Christ. My treasure was in a friendship instead of Christ. Christ needs to be the treasure of our hearts and not the temporary things of this world. I felt like a failure... a sinner who does not deserve God's grace, yet through Christ I am flooded with the grace of God.
My learning disability is to show the world that though I am weak my God is strong and powerful. Though I constantly miss the mark, the grace of Jesus is sufficient for me.
The Lord confronted me today with a model that is so applicable to my life and showed me of my own sinfulness and failures. Whatever I treasure, I will think do, and feel in my situation. I sometimes place value and make idols out of the wrong things. They include what people think, being a perfectionist, technology, and even friendships. As believers we tend to misplace our priorities in people or stuff that will ultiamately fail us or even fade away. The things we can see are temporary but the things that are unseen are eternal. So what has my problem been... I have idolized the wrong relationship with a friend. I've been longing for that friendship and just time with that friend, and consumed with making that friendship perfect. I have idolized a friendship. I was consumed with the importance of a friendship instead of being consumed with Christ. My treasure was in a friendship instead of Christ. Christ needs to be the treasure of our hearts and not the temporary things of this world. I felt like a failure... a sinner who does not deserve God's grace, yet through Christ I am flooded with the grace of God.
My learning disability is to show the world that though I am weak my God is strong and powerful. Though I constantly miss the mark, the grace of Jesus is sufficient for me.
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