Journey: Flummadiddle to Coddiwomple

Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it. This line from a hymn describes me over the last several months of no blogging and no writing. I walked away in disobedience to what God called me to do. I have lived in the mire and a pit for a while. I never told anyone I was struggling, I placed the typical "Joy facade"-I'm okay; everything is okay. I'm not living in self-pity, self regret, doubt, and pride. I am not lonely. I'm fine, or I'm good.  Or as I have talked to a friend, life, even if that friend knows what that means.

God has been faithful even to me in my disobedience. All the things I listed would have described me yesterday before 7:30 PM.  My first love has redeemed me back to Himself. As I have been on this journey, I have learned two things.

1. There is power in prayer. This is an obvious one, but if it were not for my parent's guidance and help, I learned how to pray. Sometimes we make prayer a cutesy thing, which it isn't. Some might disagree, but I have learned to cry out to God in strength and weakness. In the mires of darkness and light, He hears us.


2.  I became more aware of how the Holy Spirit is active in my life. Yes, I have always known that He is present. However, I have learned what Jesus meant when promising the Holy Spirit in John 14:16-17, 26.

  And I will ask the Father, and he will give you another Helper, 

to be with you forever,  even the Spirit of truth, whom the world cannot 

receive, because it neither sees him nor knows him. You know him, for he dwells with you and will be in you... But the Helper, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you.

John 14:16-17,26 ESV 

The Holy Spirit has indeed become the helper I've needed. He has guided me and lead me to God's truth. The goodness of the gospel, leading me back to my first love Jesus Christ. 

I walked in flummadiddle and was lead to coddiwompling with God the story He has written for me. 

• flummadiddle-something foolish or worthless (n.)
• coddiwomple- to travel purposefully towards a vague destination (v.)